Above me [incomplete]

[incomplete, August 15, 2006]

You’re so far above me my neck strains to see

That face of yours constructed in perfect harmony

My arms dare not reach to be in your embrace

My lips dare not try to find yours for a taste

Your perfection gives rise to my stutters and shakes

Your presence…just watching you…all I can take

I’m so undeserving of someone like you

Yet still I dream on, if only you knew

Every moment with you, every minute and hour

I’d graciously go back in time to devour

Just a fan among fans, competing was rough

I still can’t believe I was worthy enough

For the kisses I stole, for the smiles and laughs

For making my heart beat a million times fast

But I take what I can and I took all you spared

Convincing myself there was no way you cared

But a kiss on the forehead, a squeeze on my knee

Made your indifferences so hard to believe

Your hand was all mine and you spoke in my ear

Whispering things that I needed to hear

Now miles apart still I wonder, what if?

An angel could swoop down to give me a lift