Nothing

[2005]

Nothing

It's not like I doodle your name in a heart

It's not like the sound of your voice makes me start

It's not like I cry in my pillow at night

Telling myself that you’re not worth the fight

Telling myself, yeah, I'll be alright

Squeezing the bear that you gave me so tight

Trying so hard with all of my might

Telling myself, yeah, I'll be alright

You're nothing to me

I'm proud to say

You're nothing to me

So just go away

You're nothing to me

You're nothing at all

So don’t even catch me

The next time I fall

It's not like your pictures are still on my wall

It's not like I think of you- ever- at all

It's not like I kept all those theatre stubs

It's not like I miss all those kisses and hugs

Did you hear when I said you mean nothing to me?

Initials mean nothing when carved in a tree

It's not like I cringe when I see you with her

You're nothing to me and I know it for sure

It's not like these words that I've said are untrue

It's more like I'm deeply…still…so in love with you

1/31/05